People

   Yesterday was another day of feeling inadequate. Why do I feel like this? No idea. I have awesome days, and yesterday started off as that. And then I noticed how grey it was outside... I stayed on campus for a long time doing homework. I took a midterm and did ok on it, then headed home. I got some lunch and did some more homework before I went and exercised for 45 minutes. Usually I only stay at the gym for half an hour, but I really needed the energy boost. Following that, I showered and went on campus to do some homework before I headed off to my Involvement meeting. I was writting my speech and it took me an incredibly long time to write it, then I ended up throwing it away and writing two more. Grrrrr.
   I went to the Involvement meeting and couldn't help but feel like an odd-man-out. This isn't anyones fault except my own because I get inside my head too much and end up convincing myself that I would be intruding if I sat next to people. So, I sit by myself... which is a problem because I'm in freaking Involvement! These people are crazy nice and crazy fun! I think I just assume they all have enough friends and that I couldn't be friends with them. Like I said, I stay inside my head too much. So I came home, flustered and feeling unwanted. Then I called my parents and they said they couldn't talk. Really guys?! Of all the times you decide not to talk to me is when I am feeling unwanted.. gosh. I then called my brother, who instantly knew something was up. But he was in the middle of cutting his hair, so he had to call me back.
   I really don't like having these down days... I want to be happy, all the time! What's really nice is that I know so many more people this semester, so people are constantly talking to me whether we pass by each other, walk to class together, or sit in the MC and chat. This helps remind me that people do like me, and I am wanted. I know I always am, it's a hard thing to remember on your down days though..
People have such a big influence on me, whether they know it or not. I have done stuff with people in  my ward/neighbors and it's been so much fun. It's always nice when fun people that everyone like, like to hang out with you. Simple things such as considerate posts on my Facebook status to talking to me make me happy. 
   I think we all just need people.