The Struggle

            Life has been crazy. You can tell because of my lack of blogging. I mean, no one really follows this thing so I figure I can get away with not being as active in it as I once was. Not only do I not have much time, but I feel as though I don’t have much to say, so I don’t say anything. The few exciting things in my life are put on Facebook, but I really do need to work on blogging.

            I am back home for winter semester and have a job as a substitute paraprofessional. Basically, I’m a teacher’s assistant, and I really like it. I am in the YSA branch in Wenatchee, which is really nice, but so small, compared to my school ward. It’s fun though because there are a lot of fun people I grew up with in it! It’s nice to be home and take a break from school, but it’s also really really REALLY hard.

            Last night was a rough night. I was seeing all of my friends from school’s Facebook updates and I felt like I was missing so much. It’s almost like I’ll come back and people will have replaced me with other people and the friendships I worked so hard to build will crumble because they will have made better friends. I’m probably annoying all of my Rexburg friends with the texts that I send them… It’s the only way I have to keep myself there. Also, I’m used to doing something almost every night, but there’s nothing to do here. Wenatchee’s great, but it’s not the best place for a young LDS college student to come and have fun. Hopefully this sadness will go away so I can enjoy myself and the time I have to spend with family. I don’t want to be a Debbie Downer, but it’s hard.

            Aside from that, things are good. I love my job and feeling like I am making a difference to these kids. If I was more patient and didn’t know as much about the education system as I do, I’d consider teaching… but no. Ain’t gonna happen!